Friday, February 20, 2015

Straighten Yourself to a Standing Position

 A few months ago, I felt a terrible pain on my shoulder down to my back. I was wondering why. I never carried heavy stuff. I felt the pain for like a couple of weeks. I happened to mention this to one of my colleagues. He said that maybe I was stressed. I thought about it, and then I realized it was true. I was thinking so much of my problems. Lots of burden in my head and that affect my physical health. Then I remember about what Jesus said in Matthew 11:28 "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” I believe that when you have so much burdens in life you will literally feel the pain on your shoulder and back.

This reminds me the story in Luke 13:10-17 about the woman who was bent over. Verse 10 and 11 says, “On a Sabbath Jesus was teaching in one of the synagogues, and a woman was there who had been crippled by a spirit for eighteen years. She was bent over and could not straighten up at all.” She could not look upward or forward.  The woman's twisted body, permanently bent downwards and that she saw only the dirt and her dirty feet. 

This symbolizes the woman who lack hope, or see only the negative things in life, the woman who is stunted and distorted by emotional pain, regret, anger or hopelessness. This symbolizes the woman who could not look up and see the possibilities before her. She could not see the smile on people’s faces. She could not see the sky. She could only see downwards to the dirt. Sad to say, that there are millions of unfortunate women who are bent over and can’t straighten up due to their circumstances in life.

We are bent over in many ways. We are bent over from carrying the unending burdens and pressures of life. We become dull and lifeless.

The following are the suggested solution to the reasons why there are women who are bent over.

 Bent Over Woman in this World: not having a personal relationship with Christ  

              First Thessalonians 5:17 says "Pray without ceasing" We have 86,400 seconds in a day, how many seconds you spend in prayer in a day? – 60 seconds? 120 seconds? 180 seconds? Even 300 seconds prayer to God a day, you will not have the experience with Jesus to live through a crisis. We need to spend more time with Him.

              Do you want to have a power and strength and wisdom as you face problems, trials and temptations? Set aside a time for you and for God alone. Cry out to God whatever your burdens are. Crying out to the Lord brings you His mercy. Our tears trigger from His magnanimous heart an outpouring of His mercy to you.

                    Reading the Word of God is another way of communicating and  building a personal relationship with Him. In Psalm 119:105 says "Thy word   is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path". As what Psalm 119:11 says, let us  hide God’s Word in our hearts. 

 Bent Over Woman in this World: can't let go of old regrets      

For this I just want to say two words... MOVE ON! Manage your mind and make a conscious effort to let go of old haunting regrets by talking over it with God, or a trusted friend. Philippians 3:13-14 says "Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do, forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead,  I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Isaiah 43:18 says "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past".

Bent over Woman in this World: stressed out

I want to share three of the many texts in the Bible about God's promises

1 Peter 5:7 "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."

Psalm 46:1 "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble."

Isaiah 41:10 "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."


God gives us peace even the world doesn’t seem peaceful at all.

Bent Over Woman  in this World: mind filled with negativity

Do you want to move in a positive direction and make a positive impact in the lives of people around you? By allowing God's power and strength to pour through you, you can see God's hand at work in your lives and in circumstances around you.

Second Peter 1:3 says "His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness."

Bent Over Woman  in this World: lack of forgiveness

Learn to forgive and reap the benefits!

Steps to forgiveness:

1.     Confess and ask God for forgiveness 1 Jn 1:9

2.     Accept His forgiveness

3.     Forgive yourself

 When God forgives, our sins do not exist any longer.

 There are no records of them anywhere anymore.

 God does not remind us of them ever again.

 When the devil reminds you of your past, remind him of his future.

4.     Ask God to bring to your mind who you should forgive

5.     Ask to bring to your mind who you should ask for forgiveness

Friends, you want to feel the real Joy? Ask the Holy Spirit. Remember, If we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. Forgiving others means treating them as if there never was anything wrong between them and you.

The bent over woman was straightened up by Jesus

Back to the bent over woman, Jesus told her that she was free from whatever had twisted her body into a deformed shape. He put her hands on her, and immediately she was able to straighten her body. He could look upward, and she could see forward. It was not just her body that was healed, but her soul as well. Her immediate response was to praise God.

The story inspires us to mentally straighten ourselves to a standing position, where we see upwards to God for inspiration.

Sunday, October 26, 2014

After Amen God Answered -that instant!

I was literally crying. My problem with Alex's visa was not settled yet, then here came another problem. My passport was missing! I checked all my bags, pockets and shelves but there was nowhere to find. I guessed  I left or lost it at the immigration office the last time I have been there.

Hopeless. What to do?

I knelt down with Alex and Jed. We prayed for it. I asked God to help me find it, to help me remember wherever I placed it. As soon as I said Amen, a thought came into my mind. "Maybe it's under the couch!" I pulled the couch. Guess what! It was there. Phew!

Yes, that instant God answered my prayer. I shouted for joy and sang praises to Him.

His deeds are wonderful and I want to tell people about it ...all day long!

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

The Lost Purse and the Power of Prayer

When I found out that my purse was not in my bag, I quickly told myself, "Keep calm Beng, It's okay." I repeated this statement in my mind many times. And it helped!  Though I knew, my debit and credit cards were there, my teacher's license (the most important thing), some notes, calling cards of important people, doctor's appointment slip, and the purse itself (which was a gift from my aunt-in-law) I was so peaceful, I never worried, I never panicked.

As I went back to the places where I have been, I was praying "Lord, whoever found it, touch his/her heart. Let the Holy Spirit works with him/her. And may this experience be a blessing to me."

Not long, a Thai woman phoned me telling me that she found my purse! When we met so she can hand it back to me, I gave her some hundreds baht but she didn't accept it.

It was so amazing! There was no any card indicating my contact number in the purse, but what she did was, inside the purse was a dental card of my son, she phoned the clinic and she asked about my number. That's how she contacted me. Awesome, isn't it? This is how the Holy Spirit works. In times like this, the only thing you need to do is to pray, believe and be calm.

This experience is a blessing to me. Once again, I have witnessed the power of prayer and God's goodness.

Saturday, June 7, 2014

When Tears Roll Down On My Cheeks

Imagine this...

Busy Monday morning at the crowded bus stop. The sun gives its fiery rays. People, students and workers, go up and down the cramped buses. All public vehicles are packed. The traffic is congested. You are late for work. What would you do? 

I was at this spot one day. Every single cab that passed the stop was filled. Far from where I was standing, I could see one cab that was coming toward the stop with its red light on, that meant it was empty. I knew there were many people who wanted this cab so badly. I was one of them. I told myself "I'm gonna get this one. I'm gonna get this one." In line, there was a mother and a little girl in her kindergarten uniform. The mom signaled her hands to stop the cab. My mind was still telling me "I'm gonna get this one. I badly needed it." Before the cab had stopped, I had already overtaken the mother and the girl. I opened the cab's door and got in. 

As the cab went, I looked back and saw the poor fellows. I suddenly felt like someone jabbed my heart. What have I done? My throat started to get tighten. Tears rolled down my cheeks. I literally cried. I felt so sorry for them. I regretted what I did.  

I prayed, "Forgive me God. I forgot that you are the God of abundance, the God who provides. I forgot that you could send a cab for me at the right time, without cheating other people. Please pour out your blessings to that mother and her child. Send them a better cab than this. Give them your guidance and protection. Keep them away from any harms and danger.  Amen"

Sometimes, when you feel agitated or depressed, you may be aware or unaware, you tend to think only for yourself, the benefit that you get for yourself and the advantage that you could take only for yourself. 

Tricking, taking advantage and bluffing others leads you to warring mind and uneasiness. I'll tell you, it is difficult to be at peace until you confess and ask God for the forgiveness.

Opposite of the above, when you serve others, when you give way for others, you feel a satisfaction that money can not buy. There will be joy, peace and fulfillment that only God can give.

Unfortunately, at that moment, when I did my best to get the cab, I forgot this verse in the Bible, "Whosoever wants to be the first among you must be a slave for all, for the Son of Man did not come to be served but to serve and gave His life as a ransom for many." (Mark 10:44,45).

In every serving action, it should be done with sanctified love that empowers and encourages people. It could be in your prayer, in line for food at the cafeteria, getting on the bus, catching a taxi, your visit, your tap on the shoulder, your smile, etc.

"My food," said Jesus, "is to do the will of him who sent me and to finish his work." (John 4:34) To internalize this text, I say, I get fed by doing what God asks me to do. My nourishment come from helping people, my food and my strength, my joy and my peace come when I serve others.

Galatians 5:13 "But through love be a servant of one another.

I believe, in this experience of mine, when tears rolled down my cheeks, it was the work of the Holy Spirit reminding me to serve others before myself.

Thanks for learning with me today. Have a lovely day. God bless...

Sunday, February 23, 2014

Remembering Exodus at Khao Yai National Park

Taken at the entrance gate wherein we paid 40thb each person.

After visiting Pakchong, Nakhon Ratchasima last October 2012, I promised myself to find some time to go back there. At last, I did! With my family and family friends we escaped from the busyness of Bangkok and drove into the jungle of Khao Yai National Park.

At the view point
I believe that this park is the Thailand's oldest and most visited nature reserve. It is situated in Nakhon Ratchasima Province but also includes some parts of Saraburi, Prachinburi and Nakhon Nayok provinces.

Inside Khao Yai Museum located at the Visitor's Center
 The Park's Visitors Center offered some activities such as night time wildlife spotlighting, caving, trekking, kayaking and rafting.

Anyway, back to our adventure, we were all excited to celebrate the '2014 new year' up there... away from the noise and smoke... something new for all of us.

The crowded campsite
As what travelers usually said "expect the unexpected". Before we went up the mountain, I was imagining how the campsite looked like. "Oh, yeah, it's going to be a serene day and night for me!" But then, when we arrived there, everyone of us was surprised! It was crowded! The site was surrounded by so many cars, that meant there were a lot of campers there! The tents were being pitched very close to each other. So we decided to look for another campground. We went farther... but the next site had been already full. The camp supervisors referred us to the first campsite that we had been. So, there, we found a better place, not far from the stores and portable toilets. 
Jed and friend Ray was pitching their own tent.

The adventure began... we pitched our tents and set up our cooking place. While we were doing these things, the Thai singers, (on the stage that was stationed by the camp admin) were entertaining us with their music. They were all ready for the new year countdown for the next day.

Foggy morning
Our first night had passed. Inside the tent, there were "brrrrrr" and "bbrrrrr" and "brrrr". I don't know what superlative word I could use to describe the coldness of the night. I believed it was 10 to 13 degree Celsius. The tents and ground were soggy with dew. The surroundings were blurred due to the heavy fog.  
Jed and Ray

Jed and his friend, Ray, were fascinated with the smoke coming from their mouths as they spoke. I wore a shirt, two sweatshirts and a thick jacket, two pants, three layers of socks, a pair of mittens and a hat. This kind of weather was a freakish for a person like me who was living in a hot, if not very hot temperature-city for 36 years.

I was not sure if I can still manage the coldness of the second night. It was even colder than our first night. But I did! Thanks to my husband, Alex, who had put up a fireplace close to our tent. He kept the fire going until I had gone to sleep.This feeling reminded me of the exodus of the Israelites from Egypt to Canaan, the promise land. (Exodus 13:21-22; 14:19-20; 40:36-38)

I'm sure they had experienced the extreme cold and hotness of the wilderness' weather during the 40 long years of their journey. But God was so compassionate enough that He provided them the pillar of fire to give them light at night and warm them during the cold- weather days. He provided them the pillar of clouds to shield them from the burning rays of the desert sun during the hot-weather days. Its  coolness and moisture was being a relief for them. God had also used these clouds and fire to protect them from the Egyptians who went after them. It was also being used  to guide them in the direction they should go. The great pillar slowly and steadily moved forward and the Israelites  followed. It was a signal if they had to stop and establish a camp or to move forward.

This story  helps me to grasp God's provision. I am so grateful every day, as I feel the safeguard that God provides me and my family from possible harms and dangers.

Every early morning, my prayer is for the protection for my son as he goes to school and for me and for my husband as we go to our respective work... as we ride the vehicles and as we cross the road. Every afternoon, our prayer of thanksgiving is being lifted to God's throne as we come home safely and soundly. 

From the exodus up to now, God's safeguard is unlimited. He is amazing! He is wonderful! Amen.

Here are more pictures in Khao Yai National Park.

The starting point of a 45-minute walk trail to Gong Gheo Waterfall

The so-called Waterfall... I can't see any... can you?

The disappointment... still manage to smile

S'MORE... this paid the disappointment :)



Saturday, January 4, 2014

An encounter with God at TAIC

It was a solemn church service. While one of the church elders was leading the Pastoral Prayer or sometimes we call it the Garden of Prayer, I also was conversing with God at my seat. This was the content of my prayer-

Dear God,
I am very sorry for being selfish today, but I want to pray only for myself... for myself alone. I want you to cleanse me for all the unrighteousness I had done during the past year. Cleanse my heart and my thought. If I thought negative against other people and gossip them, please forgive me. If you found me being insensitive to others' feelings please forgive me. Please help me to be a good person. Let the Holy Spirit works in me always. I need the Holy Spirit, Lord, to guide me. I need it to do Thy will. Help me to always choose the right thing. To decide only what is good. I commit myself unto Thee. Help me to feel that Jesus' coming is very near that I may prepare myself and my family. Help me to feel the warmth of this faith of being a Seventh-day Adventist. Please rescue me. Please save me Lord. I want to be saved. I want to be a part of that Heavenly Kingdom. Save me Lord! Save me! Show me Thy ways. Amen.

God replied me so quickly. He used the speaker of the Divine Hour of Worship to tell me His answer to my prayer. At that very moment, I was seeing the sweet, humble and loving eyes of Jesus through the speaker. I was hearing the tender, caring and loving voice of Him. He was telling me to always spend time with Him. He was telling me to change my lifestyle and change my priorities. He was telling me to have more time to meditate His words, to have more time to speak with Him and to have more quiet time to listen to Him.

Revelation  22:11 really struck my heart! 

I have realized how much time I spent on 'facebooking'. How much time I spent on the internet and doing non sense stuff.I regret the time I used on achieving earthly things. I regret the time I wasted. 

I was alarmed when I realized how far I am from Jesus. Being active in the church activities and going to church every Sabbath doesn't mean that I am close to God. No... I realized I was lack of personal encounter with Him. I was lack of personal meditation with Him. I felt that I miss Him so much. I felt that my heart was empty. At that moment I felt that I need Jesus! I need my Savior. I want to commit myself to Him.

Suddenly, I just found myself standing in front of the speaker giving myself to God. I did not think to do it, I just felt that something prompted me to stand up. I was sobbing so much. I didn't care about those people looking at me, maybe wondering why I did that. At that very moment I knew I had an encounter with God.

Oh! What a wonderful and peaceful feeling to give your life to Jesus. It is a wonderful feeling to commit yourself to God and let Him work in you.

I believe that through the Holy Spirit, TAIC, my church, has also a big part for me and for all its members to continue to be 'burning' in this faith. Let us all do right and continue to do right. Let us all be holy and continue to be holy.(Rev. 22:11) For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men.(Titus 2:11)

"Behold, I am coming soon! My reward is with me, and I will give to everyone according to what he has done. I am the Alpha and Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End." Revelation 22: 12-13


Saturday, September 21, 2013

My Heart's Desire

It is early Sunday morning. I suppose to be still in the bed sleeping for it is a rest day, I mean, no school, no work. But I cannot sleep anymore. I sit here at my computer table. I open my blog and click 'new post'. I feel like I really want to write but I don't know how to start. Right now I am in low mood...sensitive... emotional. I am thinking about my mother... who is ill... in our little hut... in the Philippines.

My last visit to them; December 2012; 
At this time she already had difficulty in walking. 
It started in June when she can't move her legs and feet anymore due to arthritis. She is suffering from severe pain. She even called her siblings, one day, for she thought she was going to die soon.(She didn't let me know and my two sisters about this, we just found out later) Her business has to stopped. My father has to look after her every single day for only two of them at home.

How could I help her? How could I take care of her? I can not do anything but just send an SMS (this is the cheapest way of communication) everyday to comfort her, send money, and pray. But you know, I am unsatisfied and unhappy. I want to do more than these for her. I 'very' badly want to be with her but it's not possible since I have my work here and I also have my own family here with me.

Hope... this is I only have. Hope that sooner she'll get well. 
Faith... this is my heart's desire, no matter how bad the situation is.
Believe...I believe that there is a time for healing as what 
                 Ecclesiastes 3:3 says.
               I believe that there is a lesson behind this condition.

Going to my workplace in the morning and coming back home on songtew or bus in the afternoon is my dull moments. It is the time that these problems come into my mind. It is the time I can not avoid to contemplate about it.  I got teary eyes when I think about these:

As a daughter, I want to give my 100% presence to my sick mother but I can't. I miss her and my father so much. I really want to hug them, to cook food for them, to wash their clothes for them... but I can't!

Being a mother of one son, of course, I want to give him the best... not only the basic needs but also his desires. He has some wishes. As much as I want to but  I can not give him this time.

Seeing him get wet going to school on rainy days hurt my feeling. I think to have our own car... but not possible this time.

My aspiration to see some other parts of the world before I get old  is still indistinct to come into reality.

My plan to renovate my parent's old and ruined (by termites, earthquake and flood) house is not my priority anymore. I have to attend to their health first.

Mulling over these things makes me feel sorry. And when I feel dreary I think I have to go back to my heart's desire... my faith... my shield... my strength... my God.

To ease this pain, I should feel that only God is my heart's desire... that my only longing is to worship Him...that I love Him so much more than anything.

Whatever your heart's desire is put God first. God bless everyone! 

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Lessons from the Little at Chet Khot Nature and Ecotourism Study Center

It was a long journey for us who were still adventuring the way going to Chet Khot Nature Study Center, Saraburi, Thailand but I say it really worth it. 

It is located in the middle of the forest of Khao Yai, in a private setting. 

Wow! Amazing! As a nature lover, I roamed around and observed from the huge mountain to the tiny creatures. So I briskly grabbed my camera and took photos as much as I can. These little creatures had taught me something. The Bible is true. Job 12:7- 8 But ask the animals, and they will teach you, or the birds of the air, and they will tell you; or speak to the earth, and it will teach you, or let the fish of the sea inform you.

I want to show you the pictures that I took and share with you the lessons I have learned from them.

Looking at this butterfly reminds me of one of my favorite stories that I love to read to my K1 students- The Very Hungry Caterpillar by Eric Carl. From the stage of being a tiny caterpillar it transforms into a lovely and beautiful butterfly. 

Just like me... I was a sinner but then when I accepted Jesus Christ I became a new person. I left all my wrongdoings. My old life was gone my new life had begun.  

  2 Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore, if anyone is in  Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come."

The spider, in spite of its tiny size, it weaves a beautiful web using the chemical from its body. Through its thin hand it seizes the prey that gets caught in the web. 

In fact, the Bible says in Proverbs 30:28  "The spider skillfully grasps with its hands, and it is in kings' palaces.

Nonetheless of the spider's unimpressive look, it lives in both  dry and fresh leaves; in both huts  and palaces. It shows its beauty and strength that comes from within to both poor and rich man's dwelling place.  

I may not look beautiful outside, I can still do a lot for God's kingdom. That is by serving my  fortunate and unfortunate fellow through  the strength that the Holy Spirit gives me.

The rooster. It is known for its habit of crowing at the dawning of each morning. Every time I see a rooster or hear it crows, I remember the Jesus' reminder for us to be always watchful for we do not know when is His coming back.

Mark 13:35 Watch therefore: for ye know not when the lord of the house comes, whether at even, or at midnight, or at cock-crowing, or in the morning.

During the middle ages, because of the rooster's crowing at dawn, Christians made its image as an emblem of their attitude of watchfulness and readiness for Jesus Christ's return. 

I also must be consistent in being watchful and ready for my Savior's return as the rooster being consistent in crowing every morning.

Bees must tap 2 million flowers to make one pound of honey. 
A hive of bees fly over 55,000 miles to bring you one pound of honey.

Do not pick up flowers in the garden. Leave them for the bees. Do not waste honey.

 Proverbs 6:6,8 "Go to the ant, you sluggard; consider its ways and be wise! It stores its provisions in summer and gathers its food in harvest."

As the ants form anthill as they dig their underground nest to store their food during the summer, I should do so. I save money as   possible as I can so that  I have something to take when difficulty comes.

Psalms 104:24-28 - How many are your works, O Lord! In wisdom you made them all; the earth is full of your creatures.
  There is the sea, vast and spacious, teeming with creatures beyond number - living things both large and small....
 These all look to you to give them their food at the proper time;
When you give it to them, they gather it up;

When you open your hand, they are satisfied with good things.

I should  not be worried for my God knows what I need. 
  But I seek first the Kingdom of God...
and all these things will be given to me.

More pictures at Chet Khot Nature and Ecotourism Study Center...

Let us all enjoy the beauty of God's creations. God bless everyone!